Ah I only worked 5 hours today fuck yes. I spent the entire time on podium. Ahhhh it was so easy. So much nicer than cleaning theaters.
”you know what they call the hawaiian university?”
“what?”
“kamanawhanalayu”
haha funny, thanks perv guy. I don’t WANT to get his ass fired, but its called fucking sexual harassment. He should be fired. All he ever talks about is how close to death he is, cause he has pancreatitis. He was like “d00d, I puked red and orange in the bathroom” and he kept saying it over and over to me. It was so hard not to laugh. I kept thinking, “this fuck is pretending to be close to dying so I will feel sorry for him” even if it wasn’t true, the idea kept me so close to laughing when ever I saw him.

I hope he gets AIDS.

Haha.

Then when my parents were SUPPOSED to pick me up from work, they were like “uh we’re gonna see a movie. I was like, uh, I’m hot, I need to change out of my uniform, my shoes hurt, and I promised to see dani after work and they were like “uh no, we’re seeing the movie”

I havent taken my medication lately so I got PISSED. I was near tears. So I went and bought a shirt to wear, cause the pants werent too bad (in fact I’m wearing them now). then after, dani came over and I just hugged him and started crying.

I was so upset cause I have to go to colorado to visit my grandparents and its gonna SUCK. I mean 7 DAYS no internet and nothing to do. right before my bday so I cant even plan anything to do. btw, this trip was planned against my will. I was so upset cause I feel like no one has remembered my birthday. Im turning 17 august 1. I feel like no one is gonna get me anything, no cake, no friends, no party, no anything. I was so upset no one has even asked what I want to do/get. No one cares. I just cried in dani’s arms.

Im normally not this pathetic, once again, I havent taken my anti-depressants lately. I promise im not normally this pathetic.

All I want is for someone to remember me. I just want someone to care.

Dani gave me an early bday present. pokemon snap for N64. I don’t care, it’s a kids game, it owns. I beat it though. I remembered it harder from when I was a kid lol. He got it for $3. isnt that awesome?

Fuck. I have to go on Tuesday. An 11 am flight. I never EVER wake up that early!!! Not even today when I had work at 12:15. I woke up at like 11:30. and then I have to wake up at around 8. I seriously doubt my grandmother will be able to supply my caffeine habit while I’m down there.

Fuck.

I need dani. I havent been seeing him enough lately, what with us growing up and all.

Wanna know whats sad? My parents are unconfortable that I will be able to get into R movies when I am 17. they still don’t want me to see them. yeah.

I work at a fucking movie theater.

I wonder if all these gay boys who have suddenly been adding me on myspace actually think I’m a guy now that I’ve put “male” under my gender. If they think I am a gay guy, I am so happy, if they think im a hot guy, I will DIE of joy.